I recently bought a new pair of sunglasses since my cool pair of aviator sunglasses broke. These are not your average sunglasses. Oh no, I bought me some heart-shaped sun glasses.
What I really loved about them is the colors and pattern which is not very clear in this picture. But it is a really bright floral pattern, with beautiful colors. I hesitated a little to buy heart-shaped sun glasses from the junior section, but you know who encouraged me? Yep, Miss Marisol. Plus I figured, why should only kids get to wear cool, funky, fun-shaped sunglasses? And if I make someone smile and lighten up - bonus!
The first weekend I wore them I felt pretty self-conscious. Luckily I was with one of my favorite people and friends, so we were able to talk and laugh about them. I've definitely had a few people not recognize me at first - probably thinking I was a teen or something like that.
But after a week or so I noticed that most people didn't say ANYTHING about my sunglasses. And that actually made me feel more uncomfortable. Remember the "Nonexistent" Facebook type? It was kind of like that - when people are silent we are left to wonder what they are thinking. I usually guess that they think I'm a little "off". (But do I really know that? Of course not!)
Have you ever felt like you were actively trying to get someone to *see* you? Like you were jumping up and down, waving a brightly colored flag and yelling at the top of your lungs, "Over here! Look at me! Look at me! PLEASE, just look at me!" Only to be ignored. Oh yes, I've felt that way. I realized my sunglasses were like an analogy to this feeling. The sunglasses were my flag and most people were looking the other way.
But just this past week, after a weekend of no electricity in our home and being nomads for two days, I noticed that I was wearing my sunglasses with ease. It felt so nice! I was tired but happy and just felt like... myself. I wasn't worried about what anyone thought about my sunglasses. Actually, for a brief span of time I forgot about them completely.
This is the healthy side of "not caring", of truly shining your own beautiful self for the whole wide world to see - heart-shaped sunglasses and all.
Wife, mom, information and peace seeker.