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I feel so loved :-)
Anyways, it's not for lack of ideas that I haven't been writing. No, my brain pretty much goes non-stop. Even though I'm getting better at just "being" in the moment and not thinking *quite* as much. But really that is just it - I'm trying to be with the kids and actually *do* more for them and myself. I feel like I finally have a grasp on what is really, truly important in my life and what values I want to guide me, so I'm ready to LIVE!
It's pretty remarkable really, I feel like I've been kind of hibernating or cacooning for a long time - I have been READING so much for the past 4 years. Sometimes it would feel overwhelming or tiring or... a lot of other things. And don't get me wrong - I was living for the past 4 years - they were absolutely awesome. But I had a lot of internal growth and struggles going on that took a lot of energy. (A huge factor of course in my mental clarity and energy level, of course has to do with our kiddos getting bigger. I realize this... and yet, I do feel it is more than just that.)
So my biggest goal is to really *be* with my kids and also to start doing more things for us and myself - get back into some kind of exercise routine, trying to cook more and get a healthier food trend going around here.
So now my problem has shifted - from thinking and reading too much, to wanting to do too much in one day! Seriously, I feel like the possibilities are quite endless. Which is good - I'm not bored, I'm not feeling apathetic or uninspired. *But* since my first priority is the kids I am figuring out how to balance things. How to be there for them and support them and also do things that feed my spirit. Today was actually pretty good. Marisol is on a "Zula Patrol" kick which she watches on the computer. It is full of math concepts! So the past couple of days I have sat and watched a few episodes with her, then made a game up with her inspired by the show, made sure she had food throughout the day, all the while doing some house tending, playing with Gerry (he's been asking for books the past couple of days, it's a new fun thing!), organizing, and today I broke out the dumbells and did some stretching and exercises. Then we made it outside for the last hour of daylight and the kids ran around with their neighborhood friends. It was the kind of day that doesn't look like much, but the moments all added up to something quite satisfying for me. Even the grumpy moments - because Marisol not only noticed mine, but apologized for hers.
I'm kicking it up a notch. Trying to live by the Nike slogan. Enough thinking - now -> JUST DO IT! So I will be posting here because I am still so excited about "Together Walking" it will just not be an every day kind of thing... ok Weebly? ;-)