The kids and I had the most amazing week up in good old Bloomfield and Irondequoit NY. We got to see tons of family and play with cousins and just generally get pampered with lots of love and attention.
After about 7 hours in the car yesterday we were VERY happy to be home. Nothing like a long car ride with your kids to make you appreciate your humble abode. Gerry was cracking me up last night because he couldn't decide what he wanted to do, "I want paint", then he saw scissors, "I want cut", then his attention wandered to the automatic kitty feeder - oooh, buttons that make things move!
But this morning that is exactly how I felt - I was ON FIRE. I wanted to unpack, clean the house, use my new Vitamix (thanks Mike!), look up natural recipes for shampoo and sunscreen, write thank you notes, and of course WRITE! I also have so many good pictures begging to be shared - uploaded, emailed, snapfished, blogged, SOMETHING.
But my fire was pretty quickly doused. By mundane things like eating and feeding my kids (at least I used my Vitamix!) Marisol was tired from our adventures and at the same time bored (deadly combination!) by being at home without playmates (which she had all week!) Gerry was out of sorts and seemed to be making up for a week of less nursing.
Finally I was able to surrender to it all. And it really wasn't that bad of a day (although I did have a glass of wine at 5:30...) A year or two ago I would have felt depressed. So today was a vast improvement. I was actually kind of manic to start the day. My expectations were just WAY out of wack.
It is so ironic. My kids have been this amazing catalyst and inspiration for change in my life. And I just want to change more! And share! But my first priority is them. And they are still little. So such is my balance for now. I know that in one week the balance will be different. And in a month or a year again. So I return to my breath and the present moment.
Ahhh - there it is. Peace.
Wife, mom, information and peace seeker.